On the Side….

For weeks I’d convinced myself “I got this” …..

Mind over matter combined with phenomenal support and faith, piece of cake? Denial.

Just as a woman’s delivery pain is eased holding her newborn; the memories flashback in the duration of the next pregnancy. 

Double chemo is quite similar. I’ll rephrase that… Chemo 

Last Thursday was my final dose of double meds leaving two single treatments. Of course I was familiar with the side effects but the reality I placed aside, to get me through. 

It’s a creeping ordeal with each treatment & following effects totally out of order. Last night ….. Insomnia. A slow and consistent itch, feet, hands, the unreachable area of your back, eyes everywhere & anywhere. Take Benadryl ….. Shower; scrubbing as though you could wash the chemo away …. Not

Sheets no blanket, blankets no coverage, one two or three pillows, try the sofa, back to bed, TV music or silence. Watching the time. Talk to yourself, God & loved ones past.

Whew… 

Good Morning 

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5 responses to “On the Side….

  1. Joanna

    You do “have this” as much as anyone can. I really admire how you face each day with such a half-full attitude, deal with each symptom as it happens and don’t waste thoughts on “what ifs”. Always in my thoughts and prayers. Looking forward to leaving town together next month

  2. You do “got this”, sweetie. You got it. Not a piece of cake but you got it. xoxoxox

  3. Norma D Kraut

    keep up good spirits

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